fat is a feminst issue

or is it?
Do I want to lose weight for me or to look better? to feel better? or will I be different inside if I am different on the outside?
I would be healthier.
I have a mountain of excuses NOT to go on a VLCD, least of all the money.
But actually, the more I think about it, the more I eat!
I need to get on and DO something about it.
When?
When will I get my are into gear people?

You see, I have never been thin.
or is this what I tell myself?
I was much slimmer and there are photos to prove this, before I had my daughter, I was healthier and slimmER, not thin. It would be nice to be like that again...
What about the spare skin?
A disgusting thought and there's no way I would have surgery.
What if I felt worse about myself?
What if my self esteem took a dive even when slimmer and healthier? Surely that's not possible?
How can I lose my lovely large breasts? (the upside of being "big"is great tits)
Excuses
Excuses

peace

Its extraordinary how peaceful it is before anyone else gets up.
I had a massively productive day on Friday and now feel able to relax and enjoy myself.

Its a real shame I can't be motivated to go back to the gym just yet.
Maybe will go today.
I always feel much brighter and full of energy after a session on the treadmill and even the weights, but it's getting there! The foot in the door bit is hardest!